Epiphany!

I had a realisation this week that has made me feel like I am actually starting to achieve a mental goal in my weight loss journey: I will never be overweight again, so there is no need to freak out about putting on a 1kg if I have an indulgent couple of days, ie go on holiday or go visit my parents. I am consistently losing weight, and will do so until I decide to maintain. There is no use wasting energy on feeling guilty- that is a major thing for me. I am always feeling guilty about something in my life, and for the last two years its usually had something to do with what I put in my mouth!

To put this to practice, Scoop and I went to Lone Star with my brother and his partner last night, and I had BBQ ribs and they were delicious. I toyed with the idea of having grilled salmon, but I hardly ever go to Lone Star, and I really love their ribs, so I was going to have them! But that's ok, because today I'm back to my normal healthy eating, and whatever "damage" I've done, will soon be gone, even more quickly if I do the run I had planned tonight! Because one thing I have known for some time is this a lifestyle for me now- eating healthily is a habit. Indulging in what I like occasionally is ok and enjoyable, and not something to feel bad about at the time or days after the fact- this is something I am only just now embracing. Wow... I am starting to let some of my food issues go now, which is a good thing! One thing I had feared is passing them on to my future kids- I don't want them to deal with the demons I have.