RIP Mia

My darling baby girl has gone... we found her on the side of the road after coming home from a BBQ last night, and looks to have been killed by a car. I am devastated... she was the most beautiful cat, and brought so much laughter and happiness in to mine and Scoop's lives. I will miss her dreadfully... for now I can't stop crying. Love you so much my baby- rest in peace xxxxx

Blog lazy

Yep, I've been super lazy when it comes to blogging lately, but lots of stuff has been happening in my life, and just the effort of making myself move has been a task and a half! Slowly but surely over the last week and half the momentum is gaining to get back into the perfect weight loss/weight training routine. The scales are shifting slowly, but fast enough to give me heart that my efforts are being rewarded. The biggest thing I've had difficulty with is diet... constantly I've had this voice in my head going "Your not at goal weight anymore, and you won't be anytime soon, so what's the point?". I've finally put a sock in that voice and I am back to the positive mindset of taking one step at a time and celebrating the completion of one step, and setting the bar a bit higher each time. Deadset, it really is a simple process, but our minds make such a blooming who-haa about it


Looking forward to this weekend- Scoop and I are going up to Newcastle and the Hunter Valley vineyards to stock up on wine, port and cheese, scope out a possible wedding venue (*cheer*) and reliving memories or when we first met! Ohhh, doesn't that sound romantic? Bit late for Valentines Day, but who needs a commercial event to be all lovey dovey? Bring on Saturday!

Love you all lots- have been reading all of your blogs and glad to see that you are moving in the direction! Hope to be joining you all on the skinny minnie train soon xxx

Need a piccie...

My blog is looking bare of piccies, so thought I would upload this cool pic of Cora, me, Scoop and Mark outside a Belgian beer cafe on holiday up on the Gold Coast :)

Please let this be the start of something good!

Ok, so my challenge didn't get off to a very good start! Australia Day happened, and it saw me consume far more alcohol than planned, and I let myself in my inebriated state to buy so much junk food it was horrific.... so was the hangover the next morning! So for my first week, I gained weight... This week I have had to travel away for work, so had to fight the temptation of take away/restaurant food. I won about 50% of the battles, but I never got to exercise. I jumped on the scales this morning to psyche myself up for a good weekend, and see that I am 0.5kg in front of my original start weight... 1kg down from the gain of my first week! So really happy that I managed to do that with the trip away.

Since my last post I have done a meditation/motivation workshop. It really was an eye-opener. I have felt a lot things get on top of me lately, and part of this workshop was identifying the positive things in your life, and thus feeling grateful for them, turning my current thought processes 180 deg. Another of my problems is my poor self-esteem. This workshop taught about how we are a products of what happens to us, what we are told.... if someone tells us we are hopeless, or rejects us, we start to believe we are hopeless rejects. It is important to understand that these are other people's reactions to us... a product of their experiences, and in no way reflects on who we are as a person. It's a massive leap to start thinking like that, as it completely changes my self-image. 30 odd years of thinking I am a reject is a hard thing to give up... the workshop included a guided meditation as a way of connecting with our subconscious and starting to change long-held negative self-beliefs... I've tried a couple of times at home by myself and it really is freaky! I've always wanted to find an off-switch to my brain, and I think this is the way to do it, but my poor mind is fighting it all the way! I will persist though- it's worth it.

So today I started my day with a meditation to get myself into a positive frame of mind, it really does help... last night I was full of self-loathing, but today I am psyched to rip back into my challenge. I have two days to official weigh-in day, so want to make it count!!