0.5kg

I have 0.5kg to lose until I've reached my goal weight- this is... how shall I describe it? Amazing, incomprehensible, exciting? Those words are good ones! An emotion I felt this morning was relief- relief that I had lost 1kg for the week, after last week's no loss. One thing that that no loss week gave me was a sense of never letting myself get relaxed about how easy it is to lose weight. You can't indulge a bit here and indulge a bit there and still expect to lose weight. That's something I have to guard against this weekend in Scone. If I really want to be at goal for the UK then I really have to commit to making good choices this weekend, and not take for granted I will lose 0.5kg just from pre-menstrual bloat! Because to be honest, I'm not feeling particularly bloated today!

Really looking forward to this weekend- Scoop and I are going up to Scone for Mum's 50th and for Mother's Day. Scone Horse Festival is on as well, so there is plenty going on, so will get to show Scoop what its all about! Would have been better if we could have been up there for the following weekend for the Scone Cup- Scoop would appreciated the all-day drinking session much more than a parade I think :)

Always look on the bright side of life!

Well, not feeling quite so negative today as I was yesterday. I did go to the spin class last night and it was good- would definitely do it again! A lady beside me said I could expect a sore butt afterwards, and when I got home, I had no pain, so I thought I got off lightly, but alas I woke up with it :) I feel like I went easy on myself in the class, but my quads were sore last night as well, so I must have worked them!

I also made a big effort to up my water consumption. I average a little over 2L a day plus maybe 0.5L at the gym, but yesterday I got stuck in and had 3L plus a little at the gym. I've changed up my normal breakfast and lunch, and signed up for the new class on Wednesday night, so I am leaving no stone unturned in this charge towards goal!

After I got home from the gym last night, I sat on the lounge with Scoop, and realised I felt so much more relaxed than what I have been- I think I finally let myself off the hook with all the pressure I have put on myself! Whatever happens, happens- all I can do is try my best. You can't say I haven't tried!

Irrational Negativity

I haven't posted on here in a while now, but I am thinking that's just what I need at the moment- somewhere I can reason through the turmoil that is engulfing my mind. As the title of the post suggests, I am feeling negative about my weighloss journey at the moment, but I know it to be an irrational negative feeling. Since I last posted, I lost a kg- happy days, but last weigh-in I lost nothing. It's since then that I have felt depressed. Its ridiculous I know- I have lost 32.5kg in total, and I look fabulous compared what I use to. Its going to be great to see everyone's reaction in the UK in a couple of week's time. But I had such a major desire to be at goal for when I got there, so I could say that's it!!! I completed the mammoth task! I've tried to take the pressure off myself by telling myself its ok if I don't make it, but I guess I'm not buying it at the moment! Dumb, I know, but I can't help what I feel... well I can, I just have keep trying to convince my heart with what my brain knows to be true- they are going to blown away, no matter if I still have 1.5kg to go. I guess I wanted to be at goal also, as I know I am going to put on weight while I am over there with all the socialising I'll be doing, I just wanted to get to goal before I pile more on again!!!!!

I am fearful my body has hit a bit of a plateau, so just in case, I am thinking of shaking up my exercise routine this week. I have to anyway, as they have a new class on when I would normally do Pump, so I am thinking about doing the replacement class (like Pump, but with some cardio chucked in, and different ways of lifting the weights) and instead of doing Body Combat tonight, bite the bullet and do the one class I have been scared of- the Spin class! It is meant to be the mother of all group classes for the amount of calories you burn doing it. So watch this space! We'll see how a change affects me. I am so worried.... please, please let me lose 1.5kg before I go the UK!!!