We're engaged!!!

Hello fellow bloggers- well I ended up having a fab birthday as my boy proposed to me on my birthday eve!!! It was so exciting!!! He took me away for my birthday to Coogee. Coogee has lots of memories for us- we first went out for drinks in Coogee the first day we met in the flesh (we met online). So he popped the question there at the Palace in a quiet corner on a sofa. He apparently wanted to propose on the beach, but the weather was the pits, but it was still very lovely and very symbolic. We've come a very long way since we first drank there about 5 years ago! We've overcome lots of obstacles, the biggest one being 12000 miles (Scoop is from England)!

Oh Happy Day

Good news- I lost 1.5kg, so I'm back down to 68kg (WW goal)! But even more good news is that I feel I'm more "in the zone" than what I have been recently. I have got back into using Calorie King to track my food, and next week I am starting running again! Yay! My two months off is up, so I am going to ease myself back into it gently- no hills! I've been doing a bit of reading, and I think the pain I got in my hips was from running for too long up too many hills too soon! So easy does it this time. But I just can't wait to feel how it feels to run again... I always felt so strong and free when I ran.

I went to the Dr's this last week to finally ask why I feel so tired all the time. I really struggle at work sometimes, and it is affecting my performance. I had a bunch of blood tests and it showed I was low on iron stores. The dr wasn't sure if that was enough to cause my fatigue, but I am going to try and sort it out and see if it makes a difference. I think if I still have issues, I might see a dietician. I am trying use all the stuff I know on nutrition to plan the most healthy diet I can, but maybe I'm missing something... I know I severely lack healthy fats! So that's one thing I am trying to redress at the moment.

Tomorrow is my birthday- I turn 29... the last of my twenties.... oh dear! Anyway, my lovely man is taking me away to the Crowne Plaza at Coogee for the weekend as my present, but it looks like we lucked out on beach weather! I'm not bothered though, as we can still drink, eat and be merry :) The hotel has a gym so I can still work off a bit of the eating!! The plan is to eat very light during the day, then treat myself at dinner tonight and tomorrow night, cause it is my birthday after all!!! Have good weekends my friends xxxx

Tagged by Nic

Ohh, I've never been tagged before! How exciting!

Four dishes I like to cook:
1. Chocolate Brownies
2. Banana Bread
3. Chilli Carbonara
4. Butterscotch Pudding

Four qualities I admire in people:
1. Compassion
2. Tactfulness
3. Eloquency
4. Loyalty

Four places I've been:
1. Britain
2. Ireland
3. Sunshine Coast
4. Gold Coast

Four things in my bedroom:
1. Tower of magazines
2. Tissues
3. Phone
4. Laundry basket

Four dirty words that I like to use:
1. Wanker
2. Arsehole
3. Shithead
4. Twat
(I've used all of the above recently to describe my sister's cheating fiance....)

I have no idea who to tag... I know- Jenn! Other than that I have no idea, as I don't think many people actually read my blog other the Xmas challenge people and Jenn.

As promised....

Here is my weekend food plan! Ok, this is a tad boring, but hopefully by writing on here, I will be determined to stick to it!

Saturday
Breakfast: All Bran, banana, skim milk, small glass of brekkie juice
Lunch: Mountain bread wrap with LF ricotta, shaved ham and dribble of sweet chilli sauce.
Dinner: Vegies and rice noodles (healthy takeaway!)
Snacks: Kiwi fruit x 2, nectarine
Exercise: Boxing and weights @ gym.

Sunday
Breakfast: All Bran, banana, skim milk, small glass of brekkie juice
Lunch: Medium sushi lunch box (out shopping!!!)
Dinner: Roast vegies and chicken breast (healthy version using spray oil)
Snack: WW Muffin Break muffin, kiwi fruit.
Exercise: 40 min walk.

Right... now I just have to do it.... one choice at at a time :)

At my wits end

I am over myself... I just can't get my head together at the moment.

I gained 2kgs this week.

2kgs.

Ok, I am just gonna type for a bit and see what falls out of my head... hopefully something that I can then use to try and get off this merry-go-round of gaining and losing.

My eating is almost compulsive at the moment... its like I just let myself go out of control, not even think before I put something in my mouth. Most of the time I'm not even hungry, and in fact already full, so consequently make myself feel ill by shovelling more food in my mouth. I become ashamed of myself and then eat more to make myself feel better. Why I do this in the first place? I would love to figure out that answer.

Bottom line is I still have food issues!!! But there is something that has been distinctly lacking of late- a food plan! So the first step to getting off this ride is making a plan and keeping a diary. But there is something I am going to try and do a bit different... eat just a little more than I was eating when I was being strict. Why? Maybe if I feel a little less hungry/deprived, I won't be so quick to start bingeing!

Stay tuned for my weekend food diary x

STS: all good!

I weighed in at 67.5 kg today, so really happy with that! Its my goal to not have anymore gains till mid December when the silly season starts to kick in, so its good to achieve that the week after I set the goal!!! Would have been really bad if I had gained: it sets me up for a more positive week this week coming. I certainly feel more positive- I am starting to see results in my weights program, and I have no social events on that could divert me from my course, so I am hopeful for a loss next week.

That's better!

I LOVE Friday weigh-ins. I'm down 1.5kg from Monday, so I'm currently 67.5kg. I feel motivated to be good this weekend, but I know that if I do slip up, I still have a good chance of getting back in front for weigh-in! And ultimately that's what I need to do for the rest of my life if I want to maintain my weight-loss: balance my indulgences on the weekend with weekday discipline.

I get to finish early today to travel up on the train to Scone... very exciting! Have a great weekend x

Slack Bum

I have been a major slack bum with blogging lately- for good reason- I have been hiding! I didn’t lose my gain from the previous week: I in fact gained another 0.5 kg! My week spent with my sister proved to be a week of extremes- either really good choices or very poor choices. Most lunches I had cake, as I was comfort eating. I felt isolated working in the company that I was trialling at. And I also had to contend with socialising choices. I went out quite a few times with my sister for tea, so I am actually surprised I only gained 0.5kg!

There were some activities that I did that I worked up a sweat with while I was away. My sister took me to her gym on the Thursday, and on the Sunday we went to Nelson Bay for a walk (up a very big hill!) and a swim. No to mention the steps I would have clocked up on the trial. The tile manufacturer that I was working at was in a building that was probably a km in length!

This week has been pretty good so far. I have been back to my normal good eating- there have been some unforeseen bad food moments (work lunch, farewell morning tea, free bag of candy from the newsagent!) but I cut back on other stuff to compensate, and have been trying to be consistent with my weights and cardio this week, so I certainly feel skinnier than I was when I come back from my sister’s.

I have made a decision to move my weigh-ins back to Friday. I find Monday weigh-ins soul destroying! I had moved it to Mondays in the hope it would motivate me on the weekend to make very good choices. Alas, it’s not worked that way for me! I am going to be tempted on the weekend, and I am going to indulge half the time. I find the good thing about a Friday weigh-in is that it motivates me after a weekend blowout to jump back on the bandwagon straight away as I have four days to redeem myself.

I am travelling up to Scone this weekend to go to a country village ball with my family, so really looking forward to that. I have a plan: I am going to drink the new diet-friendly fizzy wine (Jewel Yellow) and snack on chopped up vegies, rice crackers and light dips as its BYO. I’ll have my dinner before the ball as well, so I should be pretty full before I go. And I have planned an equipment-free cardio and resistance workout for Saturday morning as well, so I reckon next week will be an even better result!

My new Xmas Challenge goal- not to have any more gains… at least not until a couple of weeks before Xmas when it starts getting silly with Xmas parties!!!!