Healthy weight!

I am so stoked- this week I managed to lose my gain from last week, and another kg! So that means, I am now no longer overweight! This is a massive achievement, as never have I been a healthy weight in living memory... wow. I can't get over it still. I feel like apart of my identity has disappeared- the "fat" part of me. The scary thing is, I don't know how I am meant to operate as a normal sized person. Am I now meant to exude more confidence? Am I now meant to fulfil my potential? Whatever my potential is? It will take me a while to wrap my head around this new change in me.

I now have 2.5kg to go to goal weight, so it full steam ahead for me! 68kg here I come :)

An Easter gain

Well- I buggered it up! I had such a lovely plan and because I didn't follow it, I got a gain. Plus I have pre-menstrual bloat, so between choccies and that, I gained 0.5kg this week. I am disappointed, but at least I understand why I have gained. There would nothing worse than putting in loads of effort and having nothing to show for it. I was extremely good the last 3 days, and most of the weekend was good, but Sunday was blowout day! Bacon and egg roll, massive baked lunch with sticky date pudding and apple pie, and a small box of Roses chocolates... I don't think I've consumed so many calories in one day in ages!!!! I felt ill afterwards as well, so its no wonder!

While I understand why I have gained, the actual fact I have gained has meant I feel further away from my goal- I have 5 weeks to lose 4kg. Sounds a lot different to 3.5kg in 6 weeks... I feel frustrated at the moment. I just want to get goal now!!! As you might be able to tell, its doing my head in a bit. I guess because I feel deprived... so maybe I need to start having small treats regularly instead of this all or nothing mentality. I just dunno!

I think my biggest problem is that I feel fatigued with all this effort. Maybe if I get to make time to chill out a bit this weekend I will feel a renewed enthusiasm for this task. Because it is a worthwhile task, making myself healthy!

Early weigh-in with a great result!

I weighed-in yesterday (Thursday) and have lost 1kg for the week!! I was stoked that even a day early I recorded such a good loss. Its given me great motivation for this weekend- so far I have resisted the temptation of lollies on the car trip up to my parents, chocolate biscuits when we got home, and hot-cross buns this morning!!! I have sat down and planned what food I am eating and when, and I feel very in control. That is unlike my time normally at home, when I act like I have no control over what I eat. So I am really excited about my next weigh-in already!