Please let this be the start of something good!

Ok, so my challenge didn't get off to a very good start! Australia Day happened, and it saw me consume far more alcohol than planned, and I let myself in my inebriated state to buy so much junk food it was horrific.... so was the hangover the next morning! So for my first week, I gained weight... This week I have had to travel away for work, so had to fight the temptation of take away/restaurant food. I won about 50% of the battles, but I never got to exercise. I jumped on the scales this morning to psyche myself up for a good weekend, and see that I am 0.5kg in front of my original start weight... 1kg down from the gain of my first week! So really happy that I managed to do that with the trip away.

Since my last post I have done a meditation/motivation workshop. It really was an eye-opener. I have felt a lot things get on top of me lately, and part of this workshop was identifying the positive things in your life, and thus feeling grateful for them, turning my current thought processes 180 deg. Another of my problems is my poor self-esteem. This workshop taught about how we are a products of what happens to us, what we are told.... if someone tells us we are hopeless, or rejects us, we start to believe we are hopeless rejects. It is important to understand that these are other people's reactions to us... a product of their experiences, and in no way reflects on who we are as a person. It's a massive leap to start thinking like that, as it completely changes my self-image. 30 odd years of thinking I am a reject is a hard thing to give up... the workshop included a guided meditation as a way of connecting with our subconscious and starting to change long-held negative self-beliefs... I've tried a couple of times at home by myself and it really is freaky! I've always wanted to find an off-switch to my brain, and I think this is the way to do it, but my poor mind is fighting it all the way! I will persist though- it's worth it.

So today I started my day with a meditation to get myself into a positive frame of mind, it really does help... last night I was full of self-loathing, but today I am psyched to rip back into my challenge. I have two days to official weigh-in day, so want to make it count!!